let's be honest, i went the route of special education in college - maybe i should have taken a few more agricultural classes or hung out with the fraternity boys - because we all know that love was probably just waiting for me to walk in... then after wiping more noses and bottoms than i can count, decided that maybe, just maybe hair school was the way to go. ummm, yeah there was not a match there either, which is weird, because there are plenty of men in the hair industry. needless to say, after being a beauty school drop out, i still found myself without.
i wasn't sad. i wasn't empty. i was happy and content for the most part. on most days.
but there was this one day.
my boss and i were in florida on an eight week epic journey. while we were in florida that year, i celebrated a birthday. and as we got to talking that night - suddenly i found myself in tears asking myself what i had done wrong in my life to bring me to this point. why me? what had i done? and she listened. and let me be sad.
all i wanted. all i desired was to love someone well.
and to have their love returned.
easy, right?
then i saw him. how can you love someone you don't know? you can't. but i was attracted in a "man, you are cool and i really want to talk to you." there was nothing else. he was this guy that i needed to talk to and moreover wanted to be his friend. i tell myself there was nothing else, because could there really have been? because faster than slowly i found myself falling.
all i wanted. all i desired was to love someone well.
and to have their love returned.
and as emails turned into a kinda friend. a kinda friend turned into a real friendship. a real friendship turned into a best friend. and a best friend turned into love.
and
all i wanted. all i desired was to love someone well.
and to have their love returned.
and as i cried that night in the bathroom with my two best friends telling them that i was falling hard for this guy and i didn't know if i should. knowing that my heart was already gone. that night they told me to take a chance and let go. fall hard, it would be worth it.
i fell.
and today a little over a year later i can tell you that...
all i wanted. all i desired was to love someone well.
and to have their love returned.
and it happened to me.
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